Mon: Oct 6, 2003: 0654h                                                                                                        - The Time of My Life-


The Time of My Life
A Reflection
Jerral Sapienza


W andering along the deep inner roads of my mind and my being, I am often there amazed at all the possibilities which try so hard to distract me away from my path.

   They call me, they taunt me, they tempt me.  Yet they never quite succeed in moving me away from the true essence of who I am and what it is I’ve come to do.

   This time of my life right now is for me a pleasant time even as the world spins so madly out of control.  It’s not that I don’t pay attention to it, don’t give the world its due.  But I can’t be troubled to own the world in its insanity just now.  I have my own opportunities for sanity and insanity to tend!

   For me, sanity is best assured when I am feeling safe in my peculiarities of life, set in my commitment to keep going along my path, served in my meditative prayer life to help make sense of things. 

   The primary life I tend is that of a writer, but trappings of any particular profession or activity don’t so much matter.  When I was an engineer or a teacher or a hospice worker, still the life I tended was the life dedicated to my three-fold journey... the journey of Learning, Growing and Sharing God’s Love. 

   That is what I call my “life’s mission” as exemplified several years ago in a piece I wrote called “Life’s Compass: a Mission.”

   It is always the same.


   Life, I believe, has a funny way of finding us on our way: winding and bobbing, tending and pretending as we do, squabbling and squandering, yearning and learning.  Yet ironically, what we so dramatically seem not to notice in each individual moment of life is that we are here on the planet for only a fairly short span of time, in the Big Picture of things. 

   It does matter what we think, what we do, how we choose to limit ourselves by our avoidances and our involvements, our curiosities and our evolvement.  The choices we make in the time of our lives are the building blocks of eternity for us.     There is no “tomorrow” in eternity; only the reflection on the potentiality of today and yesterday.  Here and Now, what we chose to make of it, are always relative.

   Wherever we find ourselves on our  particular path in life, this time of life, we are always there as a direct result of our choices.  Some of our life choices, you could say, seemed destined to be made for us, while some we consciously chose.

   But where we find ourselves in life will always be reflected in our choices.  Our relations with friends and family, ideals and identity, judgment and job all reflect our choices pertaining to where we think we’re going and how we chose to get there.

   Each life is different, yet each the same.  As we are reminded in

Ecclesiastes 1:9‑14:  What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. {10} Is there anything of which one can say, "Look! This is something new"? It was here already, long ago; it was here before our time. {11} There is no remembrance of men of old, and even those who are yet to come will not be remembered by those who follow. {12} I, the Teacher, was king over Israel in Jerusalem. {13} I devoted myself to study and to explore by wisdom all that is done under heaven. What a heavy burden God has laid on men! {14} I have seen all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind.


  Chasing after the wind.  Yes.  And yet, even that in perspective can be a noble venture.  For in the committed life of Spirit, it is the wind of Spirit which blows strongest in life.  It wafts a sweetness of life guidance by which we are better able to sail across the tumultuous sea of iniquity and confusion on which we all are sometimes tossed. 

   Perhaps then the wind of Spirit is indeed a noble wind to be chasing.  We do best, however, to remember that the Wind of Spirit is within us.  It is a Breath of Spirit and Possibility, beckoning us to make something of our lives.  And there is no need to do any “chasing” to find it.   For it is always there within: close as our breath.


   As Baine and many great teachers so often remind us, Spirit is Breath. And focusing our consciousness there on the breath is a way to constantly remind ourselves of just where we are in our lives. 

   I always can know that this time of my life is this breath, this inhalation.  It is a reflection of my opening to accept my particular place on my journey.  It reflects my contributions, my choices, my actions.  For every action or inaction I choose, here on the planet, I choose within the span of a single breath.


  Listen around you, when things are not going so well, and you’ll hear people sighing heavy sighs, vocally releasing heavy breaths as if to say, “Take this from me now, Lord!  I don’t want this breath!”


   Try it now. 


Let out a good long sigh here now, and see what it feels like to Just ... Let ... Go.


   Then, think back to another time, when you were with people who were excited and engrossed in a situation of joy, or surprise, or participative mirth. 

   You’ll see folks inhaling giant new breaths-- taking in as much as they can-- as if to say, “Thank you God, for the lovely pool of possibility where I swim!”

   They gasp in large chunks of breath with glee, usually also with a big smile.

   Try that now:  Pull in a big gasp of breath.  See and feel that joy possible, just anticipating and experiencing the prosperity and abundance in the moment.


   For those who remember the visits of Edwene Gaines to Eugene, you’ll recall that she speaks on Prosperity and how we manifest it in our lives

   You may remember an exercise she showed us, a powerful little tool we can use to help prepare ourselves to always be ready and mindful of prosperity’s abundance in our lives. 


[Edwene’s exercise:  She says to sit quietly, serious, straight up in the chair, hands in our laps, looking forward.  Then all of a sudden, raise both hands up beside our face, palms forward, fingers extended. At the same time, form the mouth into a little “O”, raise the eyebrows, open the eyes in an astonished expression, and take in a little gasping breath of surprise.  “Oh!”] She has the group actually practice this whole “serious - to - surprise” exercise three or four times, “just to get used to it!”


   Practice this, she says, be able to be ready for that next moment abundance visits us in our lives.  Might as well be ready!  Then we can own our own part in creating abundance, prosperity and wonder in our lives.


   Another place we see that reverent sweetness of joy is in a child’s blissful, joyful surprise: A little mouth shaped like an “O”, inhaling a tiny little bejeweled breath of joy.  She passes on abundance in that expression.  She sends that sparkle across the room, from her eyes to ours.  It falls upon us as a simple blessed reminder of appreciating every moment.


  That’s the wonder of children.  They have an ability to teach us often and well if we pay attention.  Certainly they don’t have to be told that “Now is the Moment!”   They already know it!


   All you have to do is travel with kids, to “get” the immediacy of their lives: “Are we there yet?”  “Is it time yet?” 

   They just cannot understand why “Now” is not always and everywhere present.  And of course, trying to explain Time and Relativity to a child is often futile.  Perhaps we do better to consider what a treasure they have there: to be able to live in a time of life where it is always “Here and Now.”  And to a child, it’s elementary!   


Children can teach us something about being true to the time our lives: Think, for instance, of a baby’s view of life.  They seem to have no worries, no trouble trusting.  When picked up, they never worry they’re going to be dropped, whether it’s three inches or six feet.  They just trust.  They are color-blind, culture-blind, socio-economic blind.  They love all and see joy everywhere around them.  They have no prejudice or fear.  They hold no grudges.  They passionately live lives of curiosity.  They seem to pay attention to Proverbs 3:5 without even knowing it, giving up needing to understand details:


Proverbs 3:5Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding”


Maybe we do well to look to the children, then, as teachers for how we can get the most out of life, to celebrate the time of our life most joyously?


Matthew 18:3-4  {3} And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. {4} Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.


And great they are!  Our children are always our teachers.  They can certainly tell us a thing or two about keeping in touch with the Now’ness of the moment.


   Just ask a five-year-old to tell you when five minutes has passed.  You’ll hear it’s five minutes later several times within the first minute, and for the next ten or twenty minutes, too, if you don’t intercede.  To a child, time just keeps on being “Now” and this adult fascination with “five minutes” seems somehow utterly preposterous!


  Every moment we live we can have “the time of our life!” and just keep on smiling.  Like I said, even as we might think the world spins so madly out of control, we need to trust that All is Well, that there is Divine Order. 

   There is One God, Great and Good, and we are each individually Good.  There is within us that great wellspring of Now’ness, just waiting to spring forth before us, its beloved gift of Abundance and Prosperity, Here and Now, ours if only we are willing to accept. 


Wherever we find ourselves on our  particular path in life, we are always there as a direct result of our choices.  That simple, then.  Life chooses me as I choose life.  May I choose wisely, then, for The Time of My Life.